I love my children dearly and would be devastated if I didn’t get to be a stay at home mom. That being said, I have to take back my days. Somewhere along the line I have made each and every day only about them. Every minute, every breath, every word is directed towards them and honestly it’s swallowing me up. This may sound harsh but I hope you can take a step back and understand what it is I’m saying. It’s not healthy for them or myself to get totally and completely lost. I want them to learn from me and see me as a vital person with interests and strengths of my own. I want that mom to be their role model. And in doing so I can become a person again, not solely a mom. This is going to be an adjustment. I’m use to how things are and so are they. I need to slowly un-suction cup myself from them so that I, not only can take a breath, but they can as well. I don’t know where I became this motherly suction cup as I like to call it. I think it started with this strange guilt thing. We, I feel, have too much information in the parenting department and because of this we can get sucked into this vortex of guilt over every decision made. Bottom line, I am a good mother, my kids have a lovely life and I need to honor that and not sweat the small stuff.