I have always been a morning person. I’m my best in the morning. Not to say I don’t utterly cherish a morning to sleep in, but sleeping in is rare, and I have pretty much learned to accept it. In the morning I feel closest to God, I feel ready to write and think and am blooming with new ideas. Everything looks better in the morning. Things that bothered me the night before pale when I first wake up. Nothing seems as bad or as wrong. I enjoy drinking coffee. I enjoy eating breakfast and would prefer going out for breakfast over going out for dinner. I feel alive and full of life. Everything bares a rosy complexion in the morning.
Night time, on the other hand, usually holds a more ominous sky for me. It’s strange and I’m not quite sure when this started happening to me but as evening comes round I can just feel the shift within myself. My patience level plummets, my energy level drops, my happiness feels fleeting. I’m going to be very honest here and say I strongly dislike dinnertime. I know, I know, that sounds terrible! Especially being a wife and mother. Isn’t dinnertime the time to come together and eat a big healthy meal and feel satisfied? Nope, not for me. I’m sorry… I have tried countless times and it just doesn’t hold that luster. I, of course,still cherish being around my family but the idea of a big deal dinner just doesn’t appeal to me. It’s a lot of work right now. The kids are picky, my husband is usually working and I don’t enjoy dinnertime type foods soooo why bother? I try to for my kids sake but this time in our life, right now, it’s just not working for me. And I guess that’s ok. My kids will be fine if I don’t cook a four course meal with oodles and oodles of dishes. We can eat something simple with minimal cleanup and experience a more happy mama. We can turn up the heat a bit and have a nice warm bath. We can get our jammies on early and turn on the tv to watch a movie-yes folks we watch every night! I used to be ashamed of that but not anymore. It’s fine, it’s enjoyable, it’s needed. We can brush our teeth, take one more drink of milk, get the beds ready and sing a song. We can say our goodnights and dream of the lovely morning that lies ahead.